This morning, I awoke from a cold medication induced sleep that left me feeling groggy and foggy, and much to my chagrin, it did not relieve my cold symptoms very much at all. It took me a minute to realize that I had overslept, and immediately, I began to take stock of the situation and gauge how much time I had to get ready and get to work. Luckily, thanks to my nearly non-existent beauty routine, it never takes much time for me to get ready, so, as I went through the list of things I did not have time to do this morning, such as exercise, I knew that I had to say ‘yes’ to two things. I have gotten into the practice of both reading inspirational books and doing a gratitude practice, and even though I was pressed for time, I said ‘yes’ to sticking to this part of my morning routine. I have found that both put me in a positive frame of mind, begin my day on a good note, and help keep my anxiety and depression in check, and I definitely was in need of all three this morning. So, I took about ten minutes to read and journal, and it calmed me down on a frenzied morning and sent me off to face my day in a better mood. I now was ready to say ‘yes’ to doing just one thing to help someone else, but that did not go as planned at all.
For the second day in a row, I struggled with what to do to help others, and I came up short. Do I really want to help others? Yes! Then, what’s the problem? I was mindful today of my desire to help others and wanted to do something meaningful to make a difference, but I felt like it was all I could to get through another very busy day at work and then a busy evening with my daughters, much less do something for others. Again, I know that in my role as a social worker, a mom, and a friend that I do help others, but this venture was meant to take that one step further. I feel like I am taking a step backward with this, rather than moving forward. I am in a rut, and this post seems like a repeat of yesterday’s post, which is frustrating and not what I intended at all. Maybe, I am over thinking this, or maybe, I am not thinking about this enough. Either way, I refuse to give up and will look for a way to make a positive difference in the world when another day dawns. The opportunities and need are there, and I need to open my eyes and my heart to them. Surely, I can do this.
Just one thing each day . . .
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