As I mentioned in another post, “Pampering is More Than Skin Deep”, I woke up this morning feeling out of sorts, and I could not shake these negative feelings, no matter what I tried. I employed every coping mechanism I have successfully used in the past, but nothing worked, or perhaps, it was I that wasn’t working. Regardless, I felt somewhat anxious and depressed, which triggered feelings of frustration, shame, and self-doubt. I really dislike these moments, especially since I have gotten used to not having them. I just wanted to retreat under my covers and not emerge until Monday.
Since my daughters are with me this weekend, hiding under the covers was not a viable option, so, I did what I instinctively do whenever something happens in my life, whether it be positive or negative, significant or insignificant, and everything in between, I turned to my special friend who is my ‘go to’ person. My special friend is special for many reasons, and some day, I hope to be able to tell the story of our friendship, as it is interesting indeed. For now, though, I will focus on what my friend did for me today.
When my “mind goes to a bad place”, as my friend says, it is like an out-of-body and out of mind experience, as I can feel the snowball effect of the negative thoughts, but have difficulty being able to stop them sometimes. It is maddening! Thankfully, my friend is adept at helping me see my way through the madness, and I am able to be vulnerable and honest with myself and with them. Professionally and personally, I am in the role of being a helper, so, I am grateful that when I need help, I know that I can count on some trusted friends and family members, with my special friend being the first one I run to generally. Even when they cannot change the situation or offer any answers or solutions, they do offer me support and acceptance and help give me a different perspective on whatever is troubling me. Most of all, they stick around and believe me when I say, “I’ve got this’, even when I am not so sure of myself and my dreams.
My friend and I are not perfect as individuals or as a friends, but we are perfectly flawed and still manage to be there for one another, which we do not take for granted. Today, this person helped me get back on track in time to be able to enjoy a wonderful evening with my younger daughter, and for that and countless other reasons, I want to thank them from the bottom of my big heart. They truly are a special friend indeed.
That’s another story . . .
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