My usual peaceful start to a quiet Sunday was shattered upon waking from a vivid nightmare that seemed all too real, in part because some of it wasn’t solely from my imagination. No, some of the nightmare contained the harsh rehashing of actual events that I have experienced during my waking hours. As I emerged from the nightmare, intense feelings of grief and fear washed over me, and it felt so real that I instinctively reached for my phone to reach out to my trusted support system. Before I could dial the numbers of those who have rescued me from myself and others in the past, I came to the realization that what had happened had occurred in the recesses of my mind, not in actuality. While I felt a sense of relief, the residual painful feelings remained. They linger still.
As I make my way through this otherwise tranquil and beautiful day, I continue to process what took place while I slept. I am not an expert at dream analysis at all, but I do believe that dreams, and nightmares alike, offer messages or lessons that can be applied while fully awake. As I recounted as many of the details as I could from the nightmare, slowly the meaning of it began to reveal itself.
The nightmare centered around a cherished relationship that careened to a devastating end. I was left mired in grief, while the other person had moved on before our relationship had concluded. There were countless words left unspoken and just as many questions left unanswered, and it has haunted me. While I have accepted that I cannot have closure with someone whose mind and heart are closed off to me, and as I continue to heal and move forward, it would seem that this nightmare served as a vehicle for me to express some of the feelings and words that I will never share with this person. In the nightmare, I left no stone unturned and was faced with the ugly truth that had been carefully presented to me as a pretty lie, one which I willingly accepted, even when my intuition and those who truly love me implored me to see the truth of the matter. What I wasn’t able to do when in the eye of the storm, I was able to do in the form of this nightmare.
Earlier today, I took a drive down my beloved River Road and allowed the warmth of the sun, the sound of music, and my bittersweet tears quiet my restless mind and soothe my heart and baby soul. It may have felt real and unleashed some very real emotions, but it thankfully was just an illusion. The nightmare is over for me now, even if some of the unsettling feelings that it triggered remain a bit longer, and I am refocused on the business of making my dreams come true. I am wide awake at last.
That’s another story . . .
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That's Another Story 
Wow!
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Bob, thank you for taking the time to read this and to share your reaction to it. No matter how many blogs I write, I never am quite sure if others will relate to it or understand what I am attempting to convey, so, thank you!
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I am very pleased to visit and shall be looking forward to following you.
It’s a Great blog
Take care my friend
Bob
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I still believe you got that best seller waiting to come out! Awesome blog once again.
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Thanks for the vote of confidence, Ed, and if I ever write a book, I promise to give you an autographed copy:)
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Amen. Healing comes often so powerfully from the Spirit World and wakes us as we sleep.
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Thank you for your guidance, love, and support, Trude, as you have definitely helped me to open myself up to the Spirit World and the healing that can be found there!
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I hate when this happens….I have been doing so well and this morning for whatever reason the feelings of despair visited me again. Triggers! You just have to accept them and let them wash over and through. I cry and yell at him in my head, Say the things I can’t to him, because I am No Contact…..Big Hugs!
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I hope that your day has gotten better and that the feelings of despair keep their visit very short. The mind and the heart work in mysterious ways, so, be gentle with yourself, as you continue to heal. Sending big hugs back to you, and looking forward to what the future has in store for both of us!
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Professor Francis Crick, who won a Nobel prize for his work on the structure of DNA, has claimed that when we dream our brains are having a spring clean – getting rid of unwanted or unresolved ideas, thoughts, information, plans and, most of all, emotions.
I’ve read a bunch on dreams and it is interesting. What I do know is that you are the best person to interpret what your dreams mean.
Since my divorce, my dreams have gone down an entirely different path, more so recently. Less chaotic and stressful.
I do understand how they can affect your mood. Great post!
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Thanks so much for sharing this, as I really love the idea of dreams being like a spring clean. Sometimes, you have to clean out the corners of your heart and mind that harbor unresolved issues and feelings. Yesterday had me feeling a bit out of sorts, but today has me feeling a bit more hopeful and dreamy. Here’s to dreams coming true!
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I also like that idea of Spring cleaning. Glad today is a better day for you!
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I am, too, and I hope it was a great day for you:)
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I believe our dreams, especially nightmares help us work through painful experiences so we can continue to work on letting those experiences go. Cheers to not allowing a person or experience hold you back or take any of your power away on the way to where you are meant to be! 🙂
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Thank you so much! As much as the nightmare shook me to the core, it couldn’t shake what I have achieved or how far I have come. My eyes are wide open . . .
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