Recently, I received an email from my person. Since we often exchange emails, I wasn’t too surprised when I saw it in my inbox, but I was surprised when what I thought was a music video ended up being a video clip that took my breath away, literally and figuratively. When I clicked on the video, I recognized Steve Harvey on the set of “Family Feud”, and I thought it was going to be a funny outtake from the show. Again, I was wrong. My curiosity was piqued, so, I watched the clip, and now, I cannot breathe.
These are the opening words from the clip that inspired and terrified me:
“I’m going to share something with you that every successful person has to do, including you, believe it or not. Every successful person in this world has jumped. Eventually, you are going to have to jump. You cannot just exist in this life. You have got to try to live. If you are waking up thinking that it’s gotta be more to your life than it is, man, believe that it is.”
I felt as if he were speaking directly to me, as I have been engaged in a similar internal struggle for years. This sense of wanting to do more with, and in, my own life has intensified after experiencing a number of profound personal and professional losses last year. It has become overwhelming since my recent diagnosis of breast cancer. Instead of the tick tock of a biological clock, I hear the deafening tick tock of my life clock, with Steve Harvey’s words now joining the chorus.
I love the idea of jumping into a life that finds me thriving, not merely surviving and going through the motions. That thought inspires, motivates, and excites me. Then, there are the thoughts of failure and being hurt again that terrify and paralyze me. I am on the brink of either daring to jump or falling into the abyss.
I know what I want. I just don’t know how to get there. Sometimes, I feel like the gifts and passions that have been entrusted to me are cruel jokes, in that they are there, yet just out of my reach, and I don’t know how to get from here to there. I want to jump, but I don’t know what I am jumping into.
One of my dreams is to combine my love of writing and blogging with helping others and making a positive difference in the world and to be able to do so for a living. I have so many ideas for blogs, websites, and books, yet I feel stuck. I am not sure what the next best step should be, but I know that I need to figure it out, then take it.
For now, I am heeding my person’s advice to stay positive and take steps each day to reach my goals. I have fallen and gotten up countless times, and now, it is time to jump.
Just one thing each day . . .
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