This morning, I was on the receiving end of some rather unexpected news. You’re fired! No, I did not find myself being dismissed from either my job or from The Apprentice. Instead, I found myself being summarily fired by my radiologist. After reviewing the notes from my recent oncology appointment and examining her own handiwork, my radiologist embraced me and proclaimed, You’re fired, and told me to have a celebratory glass of bourbon.
Ever since I was diagnosed with breast cancer, I never know what to expect when I go to even the most seemingly routine appointments, for nothing has been routine for awhile. So, I was caught completely off-guard with today’s dismissal, and to be honest, I had, and still have, mixed emotions about it. I was being shown to the door of a club that I never wanted to be part of, but now, I am not quite sure what awaits me on the other side of the door.
My radiologist told me that I am being transferred to the Survivors’ Program, but I don’t know what that means exactly. I know that it means that I now will be introduced to yet another team of healthcare professionals who will shepherd me through this next phase. It means that I will have quarterly follow ups with my oncologist. It means that the fatigue will continue to subside. It means that the tell-tale signs of radiation will begin to fade. It means that I will continue taking Tamoxifen for the next 5 years. It means that my life is a new normal.
It also means that I am scared, as I feel as if my medical safety net has been pulled out from under me. It means that I fear that the club door will swing wide open and pull me back in, then, slam shut for good. It means that I take the emotional and physical scars from this club with me. It means that I cry both tears of joy and gratitude, along with tears of sorrow and guilt that I am not exiting this club with the people I love so much who remain in this stupid club. It means that I won this battle with cancer, and I really hope it means that I won the war.
That’s another story . . .
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congrats!
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Many thanks for all of your support and kindness along the way, and I am ready for the next chapter!
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Fantastic news. Just take it one day at a time and try not to linger on those “what if” thoughts. Now you get to be one of those women that give others hope when the are diagnosed.
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Heather, thank you so much, and that is advice I promise to take!
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I too found myself overwhelmed with “go live your life!” My life had been going from one appt to planning the next. The friends that I had made with my “team” would soon be see ya’s in a few months vs every week. It’s hard trying to figure out the “new norm” because you changed physically, emotionally and mentally on every level! I learned to lean on close friends, family and a lot of prayers. Congratulations on being fired ! I’m here if you need anything! Deb
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Thank you so much for being a bright spot and guiding light on this journey! I appreciate you sharing these words with me, as they are spot on and resonate with me on every level. Here’s to the next part of this journey, and here’s to awe inspiring people like you who pave the way for the rest of us. You are a gem!!!
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YAAAAY 😄 You got through it! Stand talk, look around, breathe deep. And like Tuck and Roll chime in Disney Pixar’s A Bug’s Life, “You FIRED!!” Peace to you. 😊😘😁
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Many thanks for ending my day on such a good note with your kinds words! I plan to take your advice, and I wish you peace, happiness, and good health always!
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Kristi Jo you are a bad ass lol! So happy for the great news and the beginning of your journeu down a new path filled with hope and acceptance. You inspire me everyday.
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Aw, that’s so sweet of you to say, Sheila, and I thank you very much for all of the support along the way!
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Brilliant! 🙂 Really happy to hear this, Kristi.
Best, Mike.
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Heartfelt thanks, Mike, and I am so glad to share it. I hope all is well with you and yours.
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The other side of the door awaits you! I get your emotions, but enjoy it as this is phenomenal news!! Couldn’t be happier! Congratulations! I’ll have a glass of bourbon (well…wine ok?) for you tonight!
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Joel, thank you so very much! I will take great delight in knowing that you will imbibing with me. Cheers!
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Wonderful news!! Congrats Kristi. You are…and continue to be…a source of inspiration to many; in and out of the club.
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Ha-I don’t know how inspiring I am, but I do know that I appreciate your kind words and support!
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Great news, I’m so happy for you
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I so appreciate that!
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So happy to hear this news you fierce warrior goddess! It’s time to celebrate! I am clinking your glass of bourbon. 🙂 xx
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Karen, you inspire and encourage me, and I thank you for that! I will raise a glass of bourbon to you and with you any time!
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You have won the war Kristy. I know it in my heart. This is the best news ever! This world needs you more than you know. Lots of love and strength your way as you sojourn your new normal =)
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Thank you for such a beautiful note, and I truly am grateful for your support and positive energy. I am fortunate to have you in my corner, and I am ready for this next part of my journey. Heartfelt thanks and the very best wishes to you!
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